Tuesday, March 15, 2011

What's holding you back?

Inertia is by definition:
a property of matter by which it continues in its existing state of rest or uniform motion in a straight line, unless that state is changed by an external force.

We are matter.  Mutable, transforming, and ever changing matter.  Inertia applies to the physics of our realities.  Our bodies will move or will stay affixed unless an external force provokes the change of either setting in motion or stopping flat.

If you've been reading my blog, you know that I am a strong believer of change.  Nothing will happen if something doesn't happen first.  I have been going through a profound personal metamorphosis, allowing myself for the first time to explore my creative side and grow as a photographer.  While inertia is doing its thing, I am finding myself being held back by forces that I am not yet aware of.   These need to be revealed in order for me to free and continue the natural process of growth.

Our thoughts can become allies or foes in our own personal quest for growth.  Feelings of guilt, failure or frustration all come from what I call "the grey zone" thoughts.  For me it's a place where I don't take a stand.  In my mind I decide to go with the flow of things, to see where will I fit, instead of standing firm on my convictions and fight for the kind of future that I want.  It's when I don't say yes or no, but rather maybe, let's see.  I hate it. I really do, but it's a comfort zone for me, so I get to that state of mind pretty easily.  Nothing happens in the grey zone.  It's a constant back and forth that rocks me in the same spot.  It kind of shakes my ground, but it doesn't propel me into the next move I need to make.

These thoughts are the forces holding me back.  I know it, but this is the first time I understand it.  We are our thoughts.  They are the invisible force that makes our matter to change from its original state. I choose to take a stand, and separate the grey from my future.  I know what I want, and I am going for it.

1 comment:

  1. Well-written, Paula!

    I too easily fall into the grey zone area..and it's hard to recover at times.